Letting Go

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Have you ever felt like you were just meant for something? Maybe a dress looked absolutely killer on you, or you found an internship that so perfectly aligned with what you want to do... you just thought to yourself: this is meant for me. I am meant to do this, be this, and accomplish this.

I have, and most of the things that I thought I was meant for, or were meant for me, ended up not being meant for me. Not even close.

Here's the struggle: I'm a planner. I love to plan out my life 6 months, one year, five years, ten years down the line. I like to think that I'm in charge of my future... in charge of what my life trajectory will be like. I have this vision in my head of myself... an amazing glamazon who is always dressed to the nines and never says anything stupid. I have a nice bag on one shoulder, coffee in one hand, and my phone in the other. I'm adored... and confident.

A lot of my plans have come to fruition: I did go to a great college, and I am in some great programs. I studied abroad in France, learned French, had a whirlwind, amazing, life-changing time. I do have great internships, amazing friends, and I've had some of the best experiences I could have asked for.

But the vision I had in my head? Complete bullshit.

What happened to all of these plans that I had?

I've realized something, and it's something I've thought about, and had a couple of tear-filled conversations with my parents about:

You have to let go of the vision in your head, so as to accept, love, and own the reality of your life. You have to let go of the plan, and you have to fully embrace whatever happens. 

That's scary. I mean, seriously scary.

I've had to let go of a lot of things I thought I was meant for. It's weird, like I'm living in this alternate, temporary reality and tomorrow morning I'm going to wake up on the life trajectory I have spent so much time building.

Let's get real. That's never, ever, going to happen.

I'm all for dreaming, but I'm also realizing that sometimes my dreams and my plans don't line up, and then I feel like my life is a mess. Sometimes, I have to let go of things that don't fit in my plan, and things that at one time I thought were meant for me and maybe aren't anymore.

I am meant for greatness. It may just be a different kind of greatness than what I've spent so much time planning for.

Sometimes you have to let go of what you think you should do, who you think you should be, so as to own the person you are. You are great. You are meant for greatness, and you are meant for the greatness that your life has in store for you.

Are you meant for greatness? What have you had to let go of so you can achieve that greatness? 

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